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  • Feb. 5th, 2008 at 10:31 AM
Just wanted to drop a line and let you all know that I have moved my blog to Twisted Helix

The Book!

  • Jan. 10th, 2008 at 12:36 PM
I'm happy to say that I am now a third of the way through the first draft of the book I'm working on, and I have a good feeling about it.  Although I will have to spend a lot of time revising it once the draft is completed, fleshing it out a bit with prose, adjusting the tempo and make it a bit easier and fun to read, I think I have captured the 'meat' of the story quite well.
I even have the ending worked out ;)

Just thought I'd let you know, if there's still anyone actually reading this blog :D

Anyways, back to my writing!

Trials of the Wild

  • Dec. 31st, 2007 at 9:43 PM
Normally, chilli is deseeded before it is blitzed and combined with various spices and herbs to make curry pastes.  The seeds, as you should know by now, is where most of the heat comes from.  If you want a curry paste that, instead of having a round and smooth taste, yields a sharper bite, make your own, and don't deseed the chillis!

Trials of the Wild is the working title of my new book, which was coming along quite nicely if I say so myself.  I  however came to realize that my research and preparations were inadequate, and decided to do an overhaul.  This, of course, resulted in me having to practically rewrite the entire book! 
A had completed about 20% of the initial writing, before the thought struck me, that I had created several inconsistencies, a fairly weak story and virtually no subplots.  Now, armed with proper research and preparation, maps, genealogy and political snapshots, I believe I can finally write the book in such a way that I need not be overtly embarrassed about the end result. 

Currently, I'm rewriting the first chapter and working out some of the sub plots, as well as fleshing out some of the c-characters, although this has set me back a couple of months, I have a good feeling about it, the chronology and depth of the story is . . . much . . . much . . . better!

Well, now you know why I have been so absent from my blog, and hope you are looking as much forward to reading my book as I am ;)

Sweet as a Carrot

  • Nov. 18th, 2007 at 3:01 AM

Taste (or more formally, gustation) is a form of direct chemoreception and is one of the traditional five senses. It refers to the ability to detect the flavor of substances such as food and poisons. In humans and many other vertebrate animals the sense of taste partners with the less direct sense of smell, in the brain's perception of flavor. Classical taste sensations include sweet, salty, sour, and bitter.  Most chilli fruits are sour by taste.

Some people relish the kind of sour candy that makes your face crinkle up and suck itself down your throat and out your rectum.  Personally I shiver at the mere thought of it.  I find the taste of sugar too overwhelming in most candy bars available in stores, like Snickers, Lion and Mars bars.  Some people cannot get enough of them.    Preferences are so varied.   But why do they vary so?

Once at the dinner table when I was a child, around five, my six year older brother exclaimed "eww, peas, I don't like those!"  Naturally, I echoed it word for word and have since that day not found myself able to enjoy a heap of peas.  Before that day, I ate them with gusto, but never once since.  My dislike for peas was not a natural thing caused by the development of my tastebuds or sudden inability to appreciate their texture, it was merely an adopted preference caused by the adoration of my elder brother and my wish to be like him.  

The natural tendency of children is to conform and adapt to it's environment, this is how they learn.  They mimic the behavior of other people and in so doing, they gradually learn speach, and in time, they gain a better understanding of the world around them.  They observe their environment and learn how to behave.  As children grow older, they often seek to be just like their peers.  They often insist on dressing the same and can sometimes be overtly obsessed with "fitting in".  This is natural, it is not only part of how we learn from each other, but also part of our survival instincts.  A good example is the odd colored hen that will be pecked to death by its peers, because it didn't "fit in".  Likewise children will often be bullied or excluded, if they don't fit in.  To some extent, this can often influence their likes and dislikes, just like I stopped liking peas when my bother for no apparent reason exlaimed he no longer liked them.    

Everyone knows that excessive amounts of sugar is unhealthy and often downright perilous to our health.  It can lead to numerous afflictions, such as diabetes, which if you dear reader didn't know, can actually be fatal!  The overconsumption of sugar in today's western cultures are hazardous to say the least.  A vast majority of the western population is overweight if not outright obese.  More people are diagnosed with diabetes and there are more and more extreme cases where people are so overweight, it becomes a handicap, not only to them, but to the rest of society.

How often are children not rewarded with sweets?  How often do we not hear parents say "if you behave you will get sweets", or "if you misbehave, there will be no sweets for you!".  The chemical properties of sugar are well known and although sugar is highly addictive; a baby is just as likely to ransack the kitchen and end up stuffing it's wee little face with a jar of your favorite expensive imported java beans as a pound of sugar.  Babies have no concept of sweets or treats.  They know only urges, frustration and satisfaction.  Hunger being one of the most basic ones, which is in most cases first satiated with their mother's milk.  But somewhere along the way, they learn that sugar products are a treat.  Why is it a treat?  Because we only allow them to eat it every now and then.  Therefore it becomes something special, out of the ordinary, reserved only for special occations.  And because it tastes good, it becomes a valuable commodity, that children want and we only give them rarely, which puts us in a position of power.  The power to give them something they want only when we allow them to have it.  Parents quickly learn that they can control their children's behavior with this commodity.  With a crude combination of pleas and threats, either begging their children to behave and promising treats in return, or threatening them into submission, by saying they will not get any treats if they don't stop misbehaving.  Thereby, indirectly reinforcing the idea that sweets are indead a treat.  Sugar becomes a comodity in a role play between the child and the parent(s).  A currency, if you will.  And because it becomes so special, children will want more of it. 

But what would happen, if a child was subjected from birth to the same thing, except having the candybar replaced with a carrot?  Saying, "if you behave, you will get a carrot" or "if you don't stop this at once, you will not get any carrots!"  The child would pick up on carrot being a treat, that much is certain.  What if you said to a child, "eww, candy, that's so gross and unhealthy!"  Would the child, like I did when I was younger with the peas, suddenly stop liking candy?  If the child is young enough, most likely.

Why do we then insist on teaching our children that overdosing on sugar is something they should aspire for, instead of say, a carrot?

The fact aside that this is very poor parenting and by no means a substitute for teaching children respect, discipline and proper moral values; noone can deny that for its own purpouse, it is highly efficient.  Parents gain some measure of control over the behavior of their children.  The side effect being that they constantly have to keep it up, they become stuck in the role play, using sugar as a comodity.  When the children then grow up, they no longer have their parent(s) there to control their behavior with coercions of treats.  They acquire the means to procure it themselves.  And when they then venture into the world, they do so with a weakened moral foundation and lacking discipline and respect.  If children are instead instilled with a strong moral foundation and taught discipline, respect and responsibility; they will know right from wrong and there will be no need to control them, only guide them.

A child that knows right from wrong will do wrong only if it lacks discipline and respect.  The human mind weights and measures decisions by effort, reward and consequence, impeded or coerced by respect and the sense of moral values.  When contemplating doing something good or neccessary, the mind may consider the reward minimal, but will be coerced by discipline and respect to act.  When contemplating doing something wrong, the human mind will weight and measure the reward versus the risk and consequences of getting caught.  If it deems the reward higher than the risk of getting caught, or consequence of getting caught, then the only thing standing in its way is its respect and sense of moral values, in psychology this is called the superego (simplified; refer to wikipedia if you wish a complete and extensive article on the superego).

Why then, is it so hard to instead of controlling children with coercion, teach them how to behave from the start?  Because it takes time and because it must be reinforced by example.  We tell our children to go to bed at eight, yet we stay awake until midnight.  We tell our children they cannot smoke, they cannot drink alcohol, yet we do it ourselves.   We do not lead by example.  Therefore we are forced to threaten them into submission, controlling their behavior.  Because we can't have them behaving as we ourselves do, can we?  Smoking, drinking and staying up until midnight.  And who has time nowadays to spend almost all their time with their children, teaching them and guiding them, when we are tired from work or busy with friends or sorting out the bills.   It's just so convenient to just place them infront of the TV and let the rest of world tend to them...

Take care my friends, when undertaking the greatest responsibility known to our species, parenting is by no means an easy task.

Fashion

  • Nov. 15th, 2007 at 10:23 AM

Fashion has brought many things, some great, some not.  Like MTV; a channel where the music is secondary and if not for all the free pornagraphy on the internet, would be the prime source of wanking meterial for sexually frustrated teenagers.  Sometimes I wonder why they don't just strip down and "get it over with".  For me, men's fashion took a much appreciated turn though, from the seventies to modern day.  I wouldn't say I idolized the flaired hippy jeans or the hockey haircut.  I am a big fan of short and tousled out-of-the-bed haircuts, picture Ben Affleck and Brad Pitt.  I feel secure enough within my sexuality to admit that Ben Affleck is a very handsome and attractive man and I would be lying if I said I wouldn't want to nick of with his looks. However, the practicality of it aside, it is just the right way for me to rebel.  The chaotic nature of it simply appeals to me the same way I refuse to wear same colored socks.

But why oh why did hats ever go out of fashion?  Call me an old fashioned, modern bohemian if you will, but I mourn the lack of appreciation of a proper headwear!  Maybe I am only being nostalgic.  Even today, hats come in every size and shape, and are more extravagant and ludicrous than the next, but it's just not the same!  Imagine the turn of the century, the pipe hats.  Now those were dignified!  Anyone wearing such a hat today would be held to ridicule.  Even half way between then and now, we saw bowler hats around every corner.  I see all those sephia toned photographs of stern looking men with their hats and furry sideburns staring at me and I cannot but feel a twinge of respect mingled with jealousy.  Today, even a more trendy swashbuckler hat, fully complemented with kakhis, would be frowned upon if not used in the proper scene; out in the wilds where noone can see.  The image if Indiana Jones, is simply out of date.

Although I try to accept my lot in life and realize I can no more stand in the way of change than a cricket can stop a speeding train, I lament the loss and I'm determined to rebel!  I will make a point this winter, to shield my naked brain case from the elements with a proper headwear and not just a €10 stitched cap from the local gas station!  I will make it my mission to buy a proper ushanka!  

Beware yea philistines, here I cometh!

Universe

  • Nov. 14th, 2007 at 1:07 AM
Chilli is an awesome product!  It is actually a family of plants, consisting of several different kinds, in many shapes and colors, all with their own distinct flavor and level of heat.  The level of heat is measured on the so called Scoville Scale.  The kind I use most in cooking is Habanero.  It's relative heat is approximately 662.1 times stronger than regular green tabasco sauce.  To the uninitiated, it provides a pleasant sensation of smoldering flesh when eaten.

The human mind is a fascinating thing indeed.  How do we consolidate our various ideas about the human existance when confronted with science, religion and metaphysics all at once?  I will make no claims of being religious, although I do believe there is more to the universe and the human existance than that which scientists can explain today.  We often forget that our science is very young, barely crawling out of its crib.  Only a few centuries ago, we first believed that the world was flat, then that the earth was the center of the universe.  Until someone disproved these "facts", they were upheld as truths at the time.  When compared to the age of the universe, our planet or just our species, the birth and evolution of science as we know it today, that we hold to such high regard, has been nothing more than a hickup in eternity.  What level of arrogance is it then to assume that what little we know of reality is anything more than "facts" waiting to be disproved?

Why is it then so hard to reconcile that there may such a thing as a soul, a god or gods?  What is a god anyways?  If a god is a force greater than humans, then I can name many, the force of nature among them.  If a god is a sentient force greater than humans, oh well, I'm all out of answers there.  But I do believe it is definately possible that there are sentient forces greater than mankind in our vast and boundless universe.  The definition of a god is very vague at best.  Each religion clings to their own definition and their own beliefs.  

Some say a god is the creator of all.  As far as I know, scientists who believe in the Big Bang theory, still don't know what caused the whole thing.  "Something" said bang, and then our universe exploded out from a single dot in the center of the universe.  They do not know what caused the "bang" or from whence it came, or for that matter, where the ginormous amount of energy that transformed itself into the material universe came from.  For all we know, that massive energy could be god, with us all being a part of it.  Just as a single strand of hair grows on our heads and then falls off, so could we too, be beings who are part of a god.  Grow, live and die, like rising and falling waves, within a galactic symphony of godlike proportions, all neatly settled into the center of our universe.

This also begs the question, that if the same said scientists believe that the universe is infinite, then how do you place a "center" inside something that has no bounds?  If there is no border around the universe, then it stands to reason that there cannot be a center either.  The location must then have been chosen for some other reason.  Was it a random act of a god blindfolding itself and hovering over the empty void with a hand and slamming a finger down on random and exclaiming "There!  That should be a glood place for me to create a universe!"  Or were all the other good spots taken?

The truth is; we simply don't know.

Equality

  • Nov. 13th, 2007 at 9:21 AM
I pity women who believe that feminism has anything to do with equality.  It does not.  In fact, it is a contradiction of terms.  Feminism  is as the name itself infers, a single sided battle solicited to increase the influences and gains of women in society and is no different in my opinion than men oppressing women.  It is contrary to true equality.  Oppression is wrong, regardless of who does the oppressing.  Women jostling to increase their power in society based on their gender alone, is no less unethical than men doing the same.  The fact that men have or once had more power in society than women is by no means a valid reason to invite the same situation with reversed roles.  It runs completely contrary to the concept of equality.  At least some organisations have the decency to not be pretentuous about their goals and make false claims about equality, they call themselves womens right's organisations.

True equality is a battle for equality for all, regardless of gender.  Rarely will you see a feminist advocate stronger rights for men in custody battles.  It simply isn't their campaign.  Where is the equality in that?  

Women and men are not the same and for that I am grateful.  Gender deconstruction, in my opinion, serves to improve our society and the equality.  But it must be tempered with the obvious scientific fact, that although the two genders are more alike than they are different, they are not the same.  We cannot both deconstruct the genders and yet socially maintain their difference.  This is a paradox people often shy from.  We want men and women to be treated as equals, yet we train our children from birth to think in terms of factions by segregating them, dress them and treat them differently.  Most countries segregate showers in gym class in schools, based on an imposed synthetic sense of modesty invented by our ancestors and passed down to us from our parents who had it passed down to them from their's.  However barbaric and backwards it may sound, even today, in places like United Kingdom, there are gender specific schools.

How hypocrytical is it then, to claim to fight for "equality" while at the same time contradict it when raising our own children?

This begs the question if we really want to fight for true equality or not, if doing so requires the complete deconstruction of the established gender roles.  Are we truly willing to to do so?  Are we willing to cast aside modesty for the sake of a world that makes no distinction between the two genders beyond the biological?

Randomness

  • Nov. 13th, 2007 at 8:08 AM
Upon request, or rather lack thereof, from my girlfriend, I decided to post 1500 random facts about myself.  I will start with the following 8.  The rest will no doubt wind itself into my blog eventually.

1.  I have always wanted to be a mad scientist, complete with white laboratory coat, goggles, disshelved hair and everything.   Currently I only lack the goggles and the coat, but Christmas is coming, so who knows...
2.  Of all the things I've lost, I miss my innocence the most.
3.  My favorite author is R.A. Salvatore
4.  My signature dishes are Pork in Green Thai Curry stew, Flatline Stew, and Raise Dead Stew.  Each is spicier than the previous and are to be consumed in proper sequential order, though not on the same day.
5.  My favorite TV series is Heroes.
6.  My favorite color is red.
7.  I won a silver medallion for a regional competition in gymnastics when I was a child.  That is funny to most people who know me.  My own father has on occation remarked that I'm "about as lithe as a refridgerator rolling down a hill".  He is right.
8.  I enjoy playing pool and have my own cue.

Introspection

  • Nov. 13th, 2007 at 2:31 AM
Capsaicin is the active component of chilli peppers, which are plants belonging to the genus Capsicum (from which it derives its name).  It is what creates the burning sensation.  It is also somewhat addictive.  I am one of those who are addicted to it.

My life revolves mostly around three things: my girlfriend, food and World of Warcraft.  Because I spend most of my time with my girlfriend playing World of Warcraft; my father has become convinced I live in a bubble of my own making, shunning the real world.  As much as I would like to argue that it is no different than any other hobby, such as football, stamp collecting or hiking, I am inclined to see a difference.  People who have hobbies often spend much time doing the things they like.  They will hike in the mountains, go on hunts, paint, ride motorcycles all across the world and what not.  So what is then the difference, between someone who is obsessed with sports, arts or literature and someone who is obsessed with a massively multiplayer online roleplaying game, such as World of Warcraft?  What makes it any less socially accepted than spending five hours painting every day, or spending almost all free time riding a motorcycle across the country?  How can this activity be less valued than another?  How do we measure the value of an activity?

There are very few people who live the life they always dreamed of, who spend their time doing only the things they want to do.  That is a minority that I will discuss sometime later.  For now, let us instead focus on the majority.  As most people grow into adulthood, they are faced with responsibilities and social demands.  We find ourselves spending more and more time doing things we have to do, rather than things we want to do.  I believe that the majority spend most of their lives sleeping and working, not because they find it pure rapture, but simply because they have to.  We are caught in a circle of consumerism, where we have to work harder and harder to support a more and more luxurious lifestyle.  We pour more and more effort into our careers, gaining higher and higher income to support a more costly way of life in a mindless search for ways to live life more fully.  Why then, do people struggle so?  We want grand houses, fancy dinners and travels all across the world, all for our pleasure.  We aspire for different things, but most aspirations require effort.  The grander the goals, the harder the effort.  And amidst it all we complain that our work hours are too long, that our bills are too high and that we do not have enough time anymore.  People often forget that once you have attained your goals, effort is also required to maintain them.  It is the struggle of our social status.  We could get a less demanding job with less streneous hours and lower bills if we would only forego the grand mansion and the cinema sized flat screen.  We could have more free time if we did not spend half of it earning enough cash to feed fuel and insurance into our italian sports cars.  

What then is the goal of our lives?  Is it to spend most waking hours working to maintain a luxurious lifestyle that we have less and less time to enjoy?  Is it to have as much free time as possible so we can spend it with loved ones, or with our obsessions?
The only one who holds the answer to that is you.  We all choose for ourselves.  Some people are on a crusade.  These people often become doctors, lawyers, teachers, law enforcement officers or serial killers.  The latest in the list excluded, I have great respect for people who are on crusades.  People who see it as their mission to make our streets safer, save us from burning buildings and ease our pains.  But we must also respect that not everyone is on a crusade or holy mission, and not everyone is obsessed with leaving behind a legacy.  Some people simply enjoy consuming and want to consume as much as they can, enriching their lives with experiences of luxury and comforts and pleasures.  Others are simply content existing, with minimal responsibilities and the utmost of freedom to do with their time what they wish on a whim.  In light of that, we cannot begin to pass verdict on the value of an activity, hobby or obsession without first knowing the goals of the person in question.  We cannot know if the activity is furthering their goals or not without knowing first what those goals are.   Due to this relative nature of the dilemma, we cannot easily pass objective judgement on how other people spend their time.  All we can do is pass subjective judgement and thereby validate or invalidate the choices of others based on our own goals.  

Do I then find it aversive to spend five hours per day or more in front of a computer, playing a game?  No more so, than spending five hours in a park playing chess, or in a studio painting a picture or hiking in the mountains.  It is not the activity itself that can truly be questioned but what the activity yields.  So then, does my playing of World of Warcraft align itself with my aspirations, does it further my goals?  Yes and no.  I learn much from my time in the game, about other people.  More so than I could at first imagine.  I have learned volumes about the nature of people and myself and most notably, the effects of anonymity on sincerety.  Things that I never imagined when I first logged onto the game.  I met my girlfriend, the woman I love, my best friend through the game.  It has enriched my life and evolved me in ways I could never before have hoped.  And yet, it also deterrs me from what my father referrs to as the real world.  The game is not enough to further my goals, they must be furthered by effort elsewhere, in the real world.  I console myself with the fact that the game will one day expire, the inhabitants of the fantasy worlds of Azeroth and Outlands will one day find the game obsolete and leave.  The game will eventually close its gates to the millions of subscribers world wide who are addicted to the phenomenon known as World of Warcraft.